2025/07/08 09:37:48
凝视深渊作为一项核心生活技能 — LessWrong — Staring into the abyss as a core life skill — LessWrong
When I finally saw the magnitude of my own folly, everything fell into place at once. The dam against realization cracked; and the unspoken doubts that had been accumulating behind it, crashed through all together. There wasn’t a prolonged period, or even a single moment that I remember, of wondering how I could have been so stupid. I already knew how.
当我终于意识到自己愚蠢到何种程度时，一切顿时豁然开朗。阻挡我认清现实的堤坝崩塌了；那些潜藏在堤坝背后不断累积的疑虑，也一并冲破。我并没有长时间，甚至一刻，想过自己怎么会这么愚蠢。我早就知道是怎么回事了。
… I knew, in the same moment, what I had been carefully not-doing for the last six years. I hadn’t been updating.
……那一刻，我明白了过去六年里我一直在小心翼翼地不做的事情。我没有更新。
And I knew I had to finally update. To actually change what I planned to do, to change what I was doing now, to do something different instead.
我知道我最终必须更新。我必须真正改变我计划做的事，改变我现在正在做的事情，去做一些不同的事情。
… Say, “I’m not ready.” Say, “I don’t know how to do this yet.”
…说：“我还没准备好。”说：“我还不知道该怎么做。”
These are terribly difficult words to say…. Say, “I’m not ready to write code,” and your status drops like a depleted uranium balloon.
这些话很难说出口……如果你说“我还没准备好编写代码”，你的状态就会像一个耗尽铀气的气球一样下降。